I don't know what to say other than dieting is hard but it's also a privilege and I'm not going to complain. There are people all over the world starving and I am fortunate enough to choose whether I diet or eat in a surplus. I will remain positive.
If you've ever purposely eaten more, when you have to turn things in the opposite direction, it's not a ton of fun. You miss the days of eating how you wanted and what you wanted, but you have a goal and you gotta stick to your guns.
When you envy the person at the restaurant eating fried chicken tenders and fries while you eat your grilled chicken salad, wondering if they are even conscious about the nutritional value of their food, if there is even an ounce of guilt, concern or even joy about this meal - you are on a diet. I often wonder what it feels like to just eat with no mental consciousness of it because I've never known that. I probably sound like a nutrition nut job right now but I'll accept that. Going to stop before I lose followers :P
We didn't see much progress last week so I got another macro drop/cardio increase and started the new numbers on Friday (Feb. 17). Saturday I worked out with Team Chubby Unicorns (Co-Ed Powerlifting Team at Rhino's Gym in Fayetteville) and was on my 3rd rep of my AMRAP set when I felt my lower lumbar tighten up. I finished the set and got out of the rack and within a few minutes could hardly bend over without discomfort. I was able to bench without pain, but I as pretty miserable the rest of the day. I could stand and sit without pain but bending or the sitting down/standing up motion was ouchy. I kept ice on it and took ibuprofen and then ended up getting a massage Sunday evening.
Fortunately, a girl I met through the powerlifting team at Rhino's had just opened a new sports massage office and was doing discounted sessions on Sunday, so she was able to fit me in and try to figure out the problem. Many low back issues come from another area (normally hips, hamstrings or glutes) so after checking my hips she had me flip over and checked out my glutes and sure enough - huge knot in my left glute. Felt like she was pushing a golf ball around. So after some cupping and gua sha (google it), she managed to get it mostly loosened up and sent me on my way. Today I have a nice purple butt with circles on it, but I feel a lot better. I was able to teach my Circuit Training class Monday morning and do most of the bodyweight leg stuff with little discomfort, but my programming coach Ryan has suggested we take the week off from squatting and lighten my load significantly with deadlifts. Fingers crossed I'm back in the rack sooner rather than later.
And going to be honest, I was pretty bummed about my back and was in a not-so-great mood so when the hubby suggested we go to dinner afterwards, I jumped on it and had all intentions of not abiding by any macros. I haven't been off of my numbers since the very beginning of my cut and hadn't had a refeed this week so I just ate a very modest/low carb/low fat/high protein/high veggie breakfast and lunch in preparation for a good dinner. We went to Bubba's 33 (if you've never been and there's one near you - YOU MUST) and I won't go into details about what I ate - but I ate good! Not a binge by any means but I did enjoy myself. And I had been craving a brownie like a mad man so I had a brownie. Sometimes the craving wins.
I'm not condoning eating your feelings or cheating on your diet when you have a goal in mind, but if it's not going to completely derail you or lead down an off-track spiral, there's no reason why you can't indulge every now and then. I knew ahead of time that I would be going out and I made the decision to eat what I wanted. And I knew that the next day I would be back on my plan and doing my thang. Here's hoping it results in a nice little leptin spike and a weight drop!
And here's the numbers:
Starting Weight: 158
Current Weight: 154
Starting Macros: 2080 Calories/ 140g Protein/ 245g Carbs/ 60g Fat
1915 Calories/ 140g Protein/ 215g Carbs/ 55 Fat
1750 Calories/140g Protein/185g Carbs/50 Fat
Starting Cardio: 3 days of Steady State Cardio for 20 mins
Current: 4 days for 25 minutes
Starting This Week
Waist 32.5" 30"
Hips 39" 37.5"
Quad 24" 24"
Bicep 12.5" 12"
Upper Hip 36" 36"
Obviously the lighting is different in the pics and I can't go back in time to retake my before pics so this is what we're working with. These were Sunday morning around 8am. Not much of a difference but I can see progress so I'll take it. You're going to have weeks where the numbers don't change and you can't let that discourage you. Progress is not linear.